Clusterfuck

The other day I was sitting outside staring at a blooming tree, and I started remembering things from the past. I remembered the stupid pranks I pulled in high school, my former relationship with Dae, and senior year among other things.

At some point I tried connecting what I've done with my life since the end of high school to the present. I couldn't recall much more than school and a few trips. At that point I kind of got a little down.

My life since high school has been a giant clusterfuck. My days seem to run together, and I honestly can't tell them apart. When I go to bed it feels like I was only sleeping for a few minutes; then my day starts over again. My schedule has been the same (different order perhaps) but it involves two main events- School and Work. The time I do have off, I don't spend for my own personal reflection, instead I help others. If I keep this up I'm afraid that I'm just going to fry my brain and have a slight nervous breakdown.

I as an individual on the other hand, have grown by leaps and bounds. I'm actually proud of how I've ended up becoming. I like that I have priorities, goals, and ambitions. I like that I say what I want without the fear of hurting another persons feelings. Most of all, I'm glad I don't bow down to my parents like I did as a youth- I grew a pair.

The next four years don't look like an easier time, with my eyes set on Washington University, I'm positive that it will be harder. Many challenges lie on the road ahead, and my sense of time will be lost even more...

Life. It's a bitch.