Outlook

Ever since I can remember I have always wondered how I will turn out in the future. My first memory of this is when I was about ten. I looked in the mirror and tried to figure out how I would look 10 years from now. My appearence was one thing I was always curious about, as I have gotten older; I wonder what kind of character I will build upon, and how my future will unfold.

Before going to bed on most nights I always try to predict how my next five years will turn out. Hopefully in that time I will have my masters, I'll be taking over my fathers company, and maybe getting ready to settle down.

During these same "happy" outlooks I also wonder what were to happen if I died. How would my current assets be distributed? How would my debt be repaid? How will people get into my online credit card accounts, banking account, etc. I tend to worry more about how the chaos will be solved in my absence. Funny thing is that I still haven't resolved that issue. I really need to get on top of that.

Ever since I can remember I have always been a planner, and a thinker. I like to be in control of situations like this, but it isn't possible. I believe that's the reason why I have tried to become more carefree. No one can be absolutely sure of their future.